April 21, 2012 Nikki Grahame, about her new book Fragile
For all of those anticipating the re launch of 'Fragile' it will be on the shelves in WHSmiths on the 10th May which is very exciting! It is also available now online at Amazon.
Just to let you know 'Fragile' is an extension of 'Dying to be Thin' so it has been updated to include what I've been up to since the last launch.
I have also removed sections that I was not happy with and that are no longer relevant. I felt it was important that I did this as so much has happened over these last few years. And I wanted to share it with you all and continue to be honest and open about my ongoing battle with anorexia and personal life.
Anyway I hope you all enjoy, catch you soon.
x nikki x
December 24, 2012 Nikki is spending Christmas in Liverpool, with the magic of panto as fairy god mother
Nikki is spending Christmas in Liverpool as fairy Godmother in Cinderella. With great reviews with the panto Cinderella at the Epstein theatre. Nikki is a Beatles Fan and is enjoying her time in Liverpool making new friends and the family are coming to see her in Cinderella, her mum, sister and nepthew Sunny. But she'll be staying in Liverpool for the big day itself and as a Beatles fan she's looking forward to exploring the city.
Here is what Liverpool Echo had to say on the website:
SHE wielded a hairdryer and scissors in Celebrity Salon – despite breaking an arm on a night out while filming the TV show in Ireland.
And now, arm fully functioning again, Nikki Grahame (pictured) is the proud possessor of a magic wand in Cinderella, currently at the Epstein Theatre.
"I do all the fun bits," she says of her role as Fairy Godmother in the theatre's inaugural festive production since it was refurbished and renamed (as the Neptune of course it had a long tradition of panto).
"I played Princess Jasmine in Aladdin at Kettering the year before last, and last year I did Cinderella – again I was Fairy Godmother so I know the part well."
The 30-year-old arrived in the public arena as a contestant on Big Brother back in 2006, and later she was runner up in Ultimate Big Brother as well as having her own TV show, Princess Nikki.
But don't assume the reality TV star, who published an autobiographical book Fragile – writing candidly about her battles with anorexia – earlier this year, doesn't know her way around a stage.....read more at Liverpool Echo
If you are in Liverpool why not catch up with Nikki at the Epstein Theatre, the panto runs until January 6th.
December 17, 2012 Nikki is in Liverpool and wishes everyone a Wonderful Christmas
Hi everyone, hope you are all getting excited for Christmas?
I am currently in Liverpool playing fairy godmother in "Cinderella" at the Epstien Theatre. I am absolutely loving it and everything about Liverpool, its such an exciting, happening city and the people are so friendly!
It would be great if you can get here to watch the show at some point over Christmas as I would love to meet you all and know you would love the show!..
Anyway I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and New Year..
lots of love
x nikki x
Cinderella runs for a magical 54 performances from Friday 7th December 2012 – Sunday 6th January 2013, Tickets are available now at TicketQuarter.
LLTV talks to Big Brother's Nikki Grahame at the Epstein Theatre
November 16, 2012 A Poem For Women - Body Gossip
Nikki featured in the latest Body Gossip film on youtube. Its all about liking your own body and yourself for that matter, its the body confidence boost we all need.
To celebrate winning the Cosmopolitan Ultimate Women of the Year Awards 2012 in the Ultimate Campaigners category, Body Gossip's co-directors Ruth Rogers and Natasha Devon are launching this very wonderful new film, to encourage all women to ditch trying to conform to cripplingly narrow beauty ideals, and instead rock their very own brand of gorgeous.
To find out more about Body Gossip and get involved by sending your story then visit www.bodygossip.org
October 20, 2012 Nikki Grahame DJ'ing at Trinity Bar
Nikki will be DJ'ing at Trinity Bar, 378-380 Station Road Harrow Middlesex tonight. For details go to their facebook page here
It's been 10 years this month since the release of 'Up the Bracket' and to celebrate we will be hosting a tribute to The Libertines.
There'll be a live set from 'Up the Racket' a Libertines tribute band as well as DJs across both floors spinning Libertines cuts as well as indie, 60s, Motown, Punk & Ska.
Doors are at 8pm and entry is a fiver. Bar til 3am.
September 7, 2012 Nikki on Celebrity Salon
If you are in Ireland don't miss the 2nd episode of Celebrity Salon airing on TV3 friday 9pm. The celebs are in Cork where they learn about spray tanning. After a heavy night out in Clonakilty, they must turn the tanning guns on each other.
In the first episode which aired on monday night, the celebs learned about body waxing and nail painting. Nikki wins a prize for her bikini wax, and got a good review from her client in the nail challenge. Watch the first episode which aired monday night below.
Nikki on the 1st episode of Celebrity Salon (4 video playlist)
August 27, 2012 Nikki Grahame on Bit on the Side
Nikki will be on Big Brothers Bit on the Side tonight 11pm channel 5.
August 24, 2012 Launch of Celebrity Salon 3
Nikki is in series 3 of Celebrity Salon on TV3 in Ireland starting September 3rd. The show centres around 6 celebrities travelling around the country for 12 days and the ultimate goal is to turn them into hardened beauty professionals.
Nikki had a great time doing the show but toward the end had an unfortunate mishap when she broke her arm during a challenge, Nikki soldiered on to finish the show. With her arm now out of the cast and as good as new Nikki is on her way to Dublin for the shows launch. Nikki at the Celebrity salon Launch.
For more information about the show follow Celebrity Salon on twitter and on facebook.
Preview of Celebrity Salon. starting 3rd September
Introducing the Celebrities
July 12, 2012 Nikki Grahame on Bit on the Side tonight
Dont forget to watch Big Brothers Bit on the Side to night as Nikki will be on it. Ch 5 11pm tonight.
June 20, 2012 Nikki Grahame filming for Celebrity Salon 3
Nikki will be on the next Celebrity Salon to air in September on TV3 Ireland, filming has already started and will wrap on on 28th July. Straywave Media is producing the third series of its popular reality show.
The series brings eight celebrities together where they must compete in various different salon-based tasks in order to be crowned 'Best in Beauty'.
On this years show the contestants are Nikki Grahame, Glenda Gilson, Layla Flaherty, Cork singer Havana, Nadia Forde, Julian Simmons, Philip Olivier and Greg Lake.
This series will show the eight contestants in a new twist, where they will travel to luxurious spas in Wexford, Cork, Galway, Sligo and Dublin to train in beauty therapy.
Good luck Nikki.
June 15, 2012 Nikki Grahame on Bit on the Side
Nikki was on the panel on Big Brothers Bit on the Side last tuesday night (12th June) with guests Justin Lee Collins and Jessica-Jane Clement.
Nikki is not fond of Chris and wants him out this week, she got all embarassed when Emma asked her if she fancied Arron and she eventually admitted of course!
Nikki was asked if she would have liked to have been able to discuss nominations as this years housemates can. Nikki said she wouldn't of liked to have been able to discuss nominations as she was paranoid enough in the house! Justin-Lee Collins said he would of loved to see nominations discussions in Nikki's year. It certainly would have been interesting given how paranoid the house was and especially Nikki's reaction to being nominated by Suzy which led to her famous catchcry "Who is she".
Nikki had some fun with a gag involving a light switch, for anyone who didn't see the highlight show beforehand - Arron wanted to go to sleep but everytime he turned the lights out Big Brother turned them back on again!
Watch the Video below for the two panel sessions Nikki was in, runs approx. 19 mins 30 secs.
Nikki on Celebrity Salon in Ireland Nikki will be on the next series of Celebrity Salon in Ireland on TV3.
June 12, 2012 Nikki Grahame as Fairy Godmother in Cinderella, Liverpool Christmas Pantomine
After last year's sucessful run in Wrexham, Nikki will once again perform as the Fairy Godmother in the greatest fairytale of them all Cinderella at Liverpool's Epstein Theatre. LHK Productions Ltd takes the helm to bring back traditional Pantomime to the old Neptune stage after a seven year absence.
Pop star Sonia will play Baroness Hardup in Cinderella at the former Neptune, while she will be joined by Philip Olivier as Buttons, Big Brother's Nikki Grahame as the Fairy Godmother, and Grease Is The Word's Alison Crawford as Cinders. Brian Dodd and Michael Chapman play the Ugly Sisters, while Radio City's Simon Greening is Dandini.
Cinderella runs for a magical 54 performances from Friday 7th December 2012 – Sunday 6th January 2013, Tickets are available now at TicketQuarter.
"Has the identity of The Fairy Godmother left you wondering "Who is she?" Well fear not as Reality TV star Nikki Grahame will be entering the Epstein Theatre as part of the star studded production. Undeniably the breakout star of Big Brother 2006 and the runner up of Ultimate Big Brother Nikki's story is a true rag to riches tale. Swapping tantrums for tiaras she will be showing her hidden acting talents honed from previous stint as Princess Jasmine and through work with Body Gossip, a charity that promotes realistic beauty, acting with a celebrity cast on stage in London and at the Edinburgh Festival."read more
Cinderella - Epstein Theatre 7 Dec 12 – 6 Jan 13 | £8.00 - £18.50 | Buy tickets
June 7, 2012 Nikki Grahame on the Auditions show
Nikki was on the Big Brother Audition show tuesday night putting the wildcard contestants through their paces in the electric shock task. A wildcard housemate voted by the public will enter the big brother house on friday. Nikki helps Jamie East to narrow down the wildcard contestants to 3 for the public vote.
Nikki having some fun with the wildcard contestants as she buzzes them mercilessly as they answer her questions. Very funny watch the video below.
May 16, 2012 Nikki Grahame on Loose Women
Nikki was on Loose Women today sporting a fabulous new hair style with a fringe, talking about her battle with anorexia and her new book Fragile. The panel reviews her time on Ultimate Big Brother when she was talking to Vanessa Feltz in the garden. Nikki was her bubbly old self as she comments on how she would like to look a bit more curvaceous and voluptuousness. She is eating well and she would like to put on a half a stone and is working on doing that.
Nikki also explains how it was really important to update the book since Dying to be Thin as it had inspired so many people to get over their eating disorders. Nikki is now feeling so positive where she is now in life and wants to continue creating awareness.
April 10, 2012 Nikki Grahame is in HEAT magazine this week
Nikki talks exclusively to HEAT magazine this week about her anorexia relapse. Having to work out 2 times a day and only taking in 1200 calories. Nikki was on the road to recovery after attending regular body awareness sessions at a clinic. However she has now confessed that she is once again obsessively exercising and dieting.
Nikki has also admitted that her low weight makes her miserable, and that she fears she'll struggle with her body issues for the rest of her life.
"When I allow myself to get below 40kg (6st 4lb), I'll always be unhappy because my brain is starved. I've just got to stay above that weight." Continues Nikki, "It's something I will battle all of my life, but I want more than anything to get it under control." Read more at HEATWORLD.
Nikki came to Australia with her mother on Australia Day and stayed through February. She enjoyed her stay with visits to Taronga Park Zoo (see picture), Bondi Beach, Manly, Sydney Aquarium and around Darling Harbour. The weather wasn't that kind to her in Sydney which was being affected by the La Nina event (Pacific Oscillation) bringing a lot of rain. But she stayed on in Melbourne for another two weeks and enjoyed the sunshine there, visiting the Neighbors TV set and travelling The Great Ocean Road. Nikki seemed happy enough but she struggled with diet and the need for exercise and made regular visits to the gym even on holiday.
Nikki I am glad you are seeking help to overcome your issues with dieting and exercise. I just want you to know I am right behind and support you 100%. You also have lots of fans who love you, and you continue to inspire many suffers that read your book. You can overcome this Nikki as you have done before, just want you to be happy. Look forward to next time you and you mum come back to Australia.
February 4, 2012 Nikki Grahame with Body Gossip on Goks Teens: The Naked Truth
Nikki will appear as part of Body Gossip in Gok's Teen's: The Naked Truth a 3 part series which airs on C4 at 8pm on 7th February. Gok Wan offers advice on problems faced by teenagers. This edition focus's on body dysmorphia, a preoccupation with physical appearance and also features Body Gossip a body confidence organisational Nikki supports.
There is a nice story in the Daily Mail online with pictures of Nikki with Lauren Pope and Aislyene. The title "Who is SHE? Former Big Brother star Nikki Grahame looks healthier than ever as she makes a rare public appearance". Read the article here.
May 17, 2012 Nikki Grahame in OK! Magazine this week.
This week Nikki talks to OK! magazine (5 page spread) about her lifelong battle with Anorexia. In the magazine photoshoot they have dolled her up as the 60's idol Twiggy, in a 30th birthday party style shoot.
Happy Birthday, Nikki! I've just had my 30th. It didn't feel the best. I think I am starting to be a bit more grown up. My mum has moved away to Dorset so I'm having to be a bit more responsible these days. I really miss her - she used to help me with my accounts and all my money stuff and mortgages and things like that. In ten years I'd like to be rich, living in Paris with a hot French guy.
Did you enjoy posing for the shoot? Twiggy was my idol. I still do adore her. it was fun dressing up like that - half of my wardrobe is 50's and 60's anyway.
Twiggy got her nickname because of how skinny she was, was her look dangerous for you because of your eating disorder? I don't think it was dangerous. When I was getting ill as a girl I used to love Karen Carpenter and try to copy her more then Twiggy. Twiggy was healthy. But there was a film about the life and death of Karen Carpenter and I used to watch it over and over again and became slightly obsessed with it.
Most people would watch it and think, I don't want to go down that path... I used to watch it and think, wow, I want to be like her. I wanted to starve myself to death. That's probably where it all began, really. Maybe it was a coincidence that the film came out when I was getting ill. Someone of normal mind set would see her life as a warning, but someone of an anorexic mind set would find it appealing.
Where are you now with your anorexia? There have been reports that you have been struggling... I did have a bit of a tough time a month or so ago. I was rewriting my autobiography and I relived a lot of demons. I had to edit the whole thing by myself and take out the bits I didn't feel were relevant anymore. But I've got loads of good support networks around me, and really good friends.
Are you back to a healthy weight? I'm never going to be a proper healthy weight but I'm getting better then I was.
You were weighing all your food and exercising obsessively... I'll always go to the gym, but the weighing of food has calmed down a lot. I went for pizza last week. Someone got me a birthday cake and everyone had a small piece and I finished the rest off myself.
What did you think about Vogue deciding they wouldn't feature unhealthy thin women on its pages? No heroin chic or size zero... I think it's about time. It's fantastic that they are doing this. It should have been done ages ago. Vogue is one of the most elite fashion magazines so hopefully everyone will follow suit.
Would this have helped you? To be honest, I think it's a chemical imbalance. I was born with this illness. But I do think the images encourage it.
Do you help a lot of young girls with eating disorders I get loads of emails from young sufferers, people who have read my book and become inspired by me. It's really rewarding and it makes me think all the campaigning I do is worthwhile.
What revelations can we expect in your new book Fragile, Nikki? My sister wrote the foreward, which is important to me. For years she's not been able to speak about my illness. She found it really hard going through it all. It has affected our relationship. She resented me for a long time - she is two years older and she saw it as if I was always getting all the attention because of my anorexia. We had a heart-to-heart about it and I wanted her to write about her own experience.
You must be thrilled to be auntie now - has it made you broody? I love my nephew so much. When the time comes I will adopt from the age of five upwards. Some of these kids might come from damaged backgrounds... That doesn't worry me because I come from a very damaged background myself. If they are five and over, most of the hard work is done. I can't conceive, I won't adopt right away, I'm not ready to settle down yet.
Are you enjoying playing the field? I love being single. I met a hot Parisian guy on my birthday. We kissed at midnight and he spoke French to me. It was so romantic! He said all kinds of seductive things.
'Voulez vous couchez avec moi, cesoir?' (Giggles) Something along those lines. But I didn't, I was a good girl. We stayed in touch but I think it was just a holiday romance. He was gorgeous.
Are you looking forward to Big Brother coming back? Always! It's the best reality show on telly, isn't it? I love it! I will be watching every episode!
October 26, 2011 Nikki Grahame Interview in HEAT magazine
Nikki recorded this interview with HEAT magazine about her continued battle with anorexia. She has had a relapse but is seeking the right help.
Nikki's Interview with HEAT:-
After ten year, it breaks our hearts to report that Nikki Grahame'a anorexia has returned. After her first day back at an eating disorder clinic, heat sat down with Nikki for a frank and, at times, extremely difficult chat...
Nikki, we're so sorry. We thought these days were behind you.
They were. But I had a bunion removed in January and because I couldn't exercise for three months I started to panic that I'd get fat. So I cut my food down by half. Then as soon as I could, I started exercising to a ridiculous degree - but without increasing the food. I have this phobia of having more then 400 calories at any one time. I can't allow myself to sleep if I don't feel I've done enough exercise. I don't sit down for two hours after I've eaten.
Do you feel like you've lost control?
(looks very sad.) I feel like a bit of a failure. I've written my book and said thet I've beaten this illness, but now it's completely controlling me. I have to know where and when I'll be eating, at least two day's in advance, so I can gear myself up mentally. It just completely controls everything.
Your life doesn't sound happy...
I'm tormented. All I think about is this regimented schedule.
Is that why you've checked yourself into a clinic?
Yes, I go ro a clinic every day, from 10am till 4pm.
What happense in the clinic?
You have groups, like a self-esteem group, a relapse-prevention group, an art group, a body-awareness group...
And you have to eat what they tell you when you're there?
Yes, Yesterday I had to eat macaroni cheese. They supervise you so you can't throw up, and it scares the shit out of me. I'm going to stay there for a couple of weeks, then go back to my therapy once a week.
You've mentioned that you hear a voice in your head. Can you describe that voice?
It's just guilt. It's constantly reminding you that you don't deserve to be there. You're insignificant to everyone else. Unbelieveable self-loathing. I did have thoughts of harming myself when I heard a friend slag me off recently, because that just justifies how I feel about myself.
Why have you spoken about this today?
Talking about it is part of my counselling. I want to continue to be honest, because I've been an inspiration to people suffering out there and I've been inundated with e-mails.
What would be your advice to someone who is feeling the same way as you?
It's OK to ask for help. You deserve it as much as anyone else. There is a life out there and there's no point in wasting any more time on that voice inside your head. I'll get there. I just need to be steered in the right direction.
Nikki your not a failure and many people have drawn inspiration from your book. No one has done more to get the awareness of anorexia out to the public, you have worked so hard. Please don't feel bad about yourself, you have done the right thing getting help. We all love you and know you will bounce back.
For information or to seek help with anorexia then visit BEAT at b-eat.co.uk.
September 9, 2011 Nikki in OK! magazine
Nikki attended the launch of this years Jeans for Genes Day at Kettners which was featured in OK! magazine.
Jeans for Genes is a great charity which provides funding for the care and support of children with genetic disorders. There's a blog about the event here
September 1, 2011 Nikki Grahame in Closer Magazine this week
Nikki is in Closer Magazine this week with Closer's new columnist, life coach Marisa Peer, helping Nikki understand and tackle the causes of her low self-esteem and anorexia. It is an in depth and informative interview in question and answer format. Nikki's session with Marisa really gets to the heart of the issues that affect Nikki today. Read about Nikki's session with the life coach in this week Closer Magazine.
At the end of the session this is what Marisa and Nikki had to say:-
Marisa: Nikki's main issues is her low self-esteem and not feeling like she's good enough. Our session was a good beginning and although her deep-rooted problem's wont be solved overnight - it will take time and effort - the good news is she can resolve her issues.
I'm confident she can make herself happy by teaching her mind to think positive thoughts and then she will start to feel different. She can do this by repeating "I'm good enough" and "I am lovable" in her head, up to five times a day. The more she say's it the more real it becomes.
She can also do some visualisation work and imagine herself as an eight year old again. She should picture giving herself a hug, and showing herself around her home now, looking at all the things she has. Then Nikki should tell her young self she lives in her world now and it's a much happier place. This will stop her living in the past and help her to move on. If Nikki changes her thinking her whole life will change for the better.
Nikki: I found this session with Marisa so helpful - she's such a wonderful lady who put me at ease immediately. I was amazed at how much she knew and understood my personal history, and she came up with lots of solutions to help me overcome the torments in my head that I struggle with on a daily basis. I went away from the appointment feeling positive and energised and feeling ready to take on anything. I'm so glad I did it.
August 2, 2011 Nikki Grahame features in The Sun on children with anorexia
"I'd like kids with anorexia to see me as a warning... I lost my childhood to this evil illness."
Nikki is featured in The Sun today talking about a report revealing children as young as five are being treated for anorexia or bulimia in the UK. Nikki tells her story so to help others and save them from going down the same destructive path she did through her childhood.
"THIS rise in numbers of children with eating disorders is tragic. What is going on in our society?"
"I think there is so much pressure because of airbrushed images and a lot of thin people appear in magazines."
"I do not think it helps that there are also stick-thin models on the catwalk. You see these emaciated models and think. They are being paid thousands of pounds to look like that. How can that be justified?..."
Nikki does a lot of work for eating disorder charity B-eat. They offer outpatient care and have advisers to tell parents what steps to take. They have helplines and provide online support visit their website at www.b-eat.co.uk.
June 1, 2011 Nikki Grahame in Mizz Magazine with Gok Wan
Nikki and the Body Gossip cast were featured in Mizz magazine last week with style guru Gok Wan. The feature is titled "Getting Body Confident With Gok!". And Mizz talks to Gok about his new project and with Body Gossip.
Body Gossip invites everyone in the UK to write a story about their body - a selection of which will then be performed by a cast of celebrities in live events and in short films on Youtube. Body Gossip is compiling a selection of stories for their forthcoming book and would love to hear from you! For more information visit Body Gossip at www.bodygossip.org.
Gok's Teens : The Naked Truth is set to air on Channel 4 in July - and it's gonna be a must-see TV! To Support Gok and his campaign, go to www.facebook.com/goksteens and hit like.
April 14, 2011 Nikki Grahame's review of The Vaccines for Hit The Floor Magazine
On 7th April Nikki was at the Electric Ballroom Camden for Hit The Floor Magazine reviewing new Indie group The Vaccines. This is the 2nd blog Nikki has done for this popular online magazine.
"What did you expect from The Vaccines?" were the words on everyone's lips after the release of their debut album on the 14th March this year. The band who consist of Justin Young (vocals), Freddie Cowan (lead guitar), Arni Hjorvar (bass) and Pete Robertson (drums) formed less than a year ago in June 2010 and have already reached heights of success which many recent british bands have yet to discover.
After their first London gig at the Flower Pot in Kentish Town, the band were signed to Columbia Records soon after releasing their debut single "Wreckin' Bar (ra ra ra)" which entered the uk singles chart at 157. This was followed by "Post Break Up Sex" which peaked at 32, and most recent "If You Wanna" (Hit The Floors personal favorite) which reached 53. Read more from the original article on Hit The Floor Magazine.
March 11, 2011 Nikki Grahame and Foxy in OK! magazine this week
Nikki is in OK! magazine this week with the Foxy Bingo mascot in a two page advertising feature. Foxy is interviewed in the feature and talks about his celebrity pal Nikki Grahame.
From the article:
Nikki and Foxy have been close friends for years and the blonde bombshell regularly visits her pal in his London home.
The two are constantly fighting off rumours of a budding romance after being photographed together constantly by paparazzi, but the friends are adamant that the relationship has only ever been plutonic.
Foxy tells OK! "Nikki is a great pal and because she is gorgeous the tabloids are trying to make a story out of our relationship, but she is actually one of the few friends who I can honestly say is just a friend. Obviously she has tried to seduce me in the past but I always had to remind her it wouldn't work out, haha."
February 11, 2011 Nikki in New magazine
Nikki is in New magazine talking about why she went into UBB, being single, her book, Natalie Cassidy's baby and her new Foxy Bingo advert.
Asked about UBB, Nikki said she went into it because she loved Big Brother and it was nostalgic to go back in and be part of the last ever BB.
Now that she's been in 2 advertising campaigns (Dominos and Foxy Bingo)she was asked if she's annoyed not being asked to do something glamorous like being in a Marks and Spencer advert but she says she loves Foxy and thinks he's really cute - just like a real fox as his eyes and his mouth move.